I feel a little as though I am coming apart at the seams. My life is crumbling around me at least on an emotional level if not on a factual level. By that, I mean that I do have certain things going for me that are positive but I can only see the negative currently. I've been split up from my ex-wife for a year now, we've been divorced for around 6-9 months. She is marrying the man she left me for this month around the time of what would've been our three year wedding anniversary. The guy is a recovering alcoholic who is a total dick and who has kicked her out many times in the past and once even beaten her up pretty bad at which point I took her in. This caused problems for me obviously and on top of that I was roomates with her sister at the time and she had to move out to get a place with my ex. This upped the rent for me and the sister's boyfriend who was my other roomate. Then the ex went back to him again after he went to rehab so that meant that I had like 6 months before my roomate moved out to live with my ex sister in law. Soon however, mountains of debt caused by both events associated with the divorce and simple bad luck and timing culminating in me not being able to afford to live there even that long and I was forced to move in with my family. Currently I live in their dining room until such time that my sister and her kids move out. About a month, but this has been going on for two already. My job is rather soul-sucking but manageable but it requires a 45 minute road trip to the little island where most of my misery comes from. I had a girlfriend for awhile but she dumped me cause she thought I wasn't over my ex but really I think she just got bored with me. I had to give away my cat who I was very attached to. Over the last few days I had to go to a seminar for work and after getting very drunk went to a reception afterward only to find that my ex's soon-to-be husband was hosting (I mentioned that he beat her once but appearantly things have been so great between them for the last few months that they are not only getting married but having a baby on purpose). After ignoring my coworkers and talking myself into fighting him in a room full of judges I decided discretion was the better part of valor and just drove the 45 minutes back to my dining room to just go to bed cause I couldn't find the energy to do anything else.